I always thought of myself as the student type. I always assumed I would go back for an LLM, Master's or PhD program eventually. At this moment I just dont' see it happening.
For one thing, I'm completely burnt out. Completely. This is my second higher ed experience and both times the final year has been almost complete hell. Very emotionally draining and any final project I have always ends up being very stressful and I always feel like my professors give me the run around. I can't even imagine dealing with that bullshit at the PhD level.
Plus I'm about $88k in the hole with two bachelor's degrees and a JD to show for it. Honestly that's not too bad considering that I had a private school experience for undergrad and now have a law degree. Many JDs have well over $100k or more in debt, so in all I'm doing OK. But thinking about that number makes my tummy hurt sometimes. Unless I got a full ride or whatever degree I chose was sponsored by my employer, I just can't see myself wanting to pay for more education. I have a great education and, as an attorney, I will continue to educate myself through CLEs, work, and future publications. I just don't see school in my future right now.
The past two weeks have been so incredibly stressful (see above-mentioned run around from professors). I'm not sure that things could have been much worse, unless the professors decided to fail us. That hasn't happened, not even close, but my team was certainly being regarded as the weak link, the "waste of time" (that's a direct quote). In the end everything was fine, but I can't believe the way these "educators" have been behaving by willing and hard working students. It's been a very disappointing aspect of this program.
The good news is that we are in the home stretch. Tomorrow we do a dry run for the professor who thinks we're a waste of time, which will likely lead to rewrites. We also have a presentation due to this guy who thinks he can just invite himself back to our classes anytime he likes. Please note that we were prepared to give this presentation four weeks ago but this guy couldn't stop talking long enough to fit five, 10 minute presentations into two days of class. Yeah, you read that right. So my team is going tomorrow. This is the same guy who blamed our professor for a communication issue regarding said assignment, then turned around and blamed us to our professor as though we were being insubordinate by not doing the assignment the way he wanted us to. Yeah, 22 people universally decided to fuck up an assignment because we're all losers like that. Asshole.
Then Wednesday is a day to fix any problems that arise tomorrow. Thursday is the big day. We're all going down to a law firm in mid-town to do our presentations in full suits. 45 minutes per team followed by lunch and we're free! I suspect this final presentation will be followed with much drinking of alcohol.
I'm crashing at my cousin's house in Queens for Thursday and Friday nights before flying out Saturday. He's a great guy. He's even said we could drive up to Tarrytown, NY to see where our ancestors are buried (the ones who fought in the Revolutionary War). This was my idea and when I was suggesting it to him I was almost sure he'd saying something like "that's a really weird idea, let's don't and say we did." But Paul's cool like that, so he found the time and said we could go. I'm so excited!
Anyway, I should probably get ready for the two presentations tomorrow. Hopefully the rest of this week will go smoothly so I can just look forward to being done. Completely done. Finished. A JD. WOOHOO!
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